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Selasa, 13 Maret 2012

March 11 ‘12


I was finished reading a book today, about Filiphina’s comfort woman. I totally amazed by the fact that there was a woman, women actually, that could endure such heavy ordeal. Life is thousands times harder back then, who wants to live in such in-beneficial circumstances?. This was happened to them, the so called comfort woman –the term comfort woman itself is just euphemism for sex slavery created by Japanese.  Them who got the unhonored title couldn’t choose nor run from the harsh reality. It was totally not what they wanted to happened in their life, yet they had to.
Maria Rosa was once a comfort woman from Filiphina. She was once a pretty and smart girl, she had a dream to become a doctor because she wanted to heal her relatives and people around her from illness freely, it was her biggest ambition in life. Sadly, her ambition wasn't as big as the reality she had. She is just an illegitimate child, her mother, Julia, who ever worked as a servant in Don Pepe house–a wealthy landlord who was noted for his devotion. Don pepe raped Maria’s mother and got her pregnant. Fortunately, Don Pepe didnt run from his responsibility, he supplied a money once in a month for Maria until she became adult. Deep inside her heart, she felt lucky even though she is just an illegitimate child, but at least her father still took the responsibility towards her. Maria and his father –Don pepe, usually met at hidden place, in the granary to be precise because Don pepe didn't want his family to know that he had an illegitimate girl besides his official wife Dona, had a good relationship with Julia, she deemed her like her own child.  Maria was accompanied by her grandmother, Julia’s mother named Carmen when she wanted to see her father. But after the grandmother passed away, her uncle, Pedro, took the role to accompany her to go there.
It was all good before 1941, when Japanese finally occupied the filipina. And that year and so forth seemed to be the darkest years and major turning point in Maria’s life. Her life changed at all. When the news about Japanese who won the war by devastating pearl harbor –before Japan, Filliphine was occupied by Amerika. After that news broke out the Japanese troops began their invasion towards Amerika shadow lands, including Filiphine. Soon after, the news being overheard everywhere, there were a big chaos in Filiphine. Though Mac Arthur –America’s Presiden at that time,  promises his comeback to decolonized Filiphine from Japan, but later on it was too late, even though the good point was Filiphine finally realized they should not depend on someone’s vow to set their motherland free, they should have to struggle for their own freedom.
Back to Maria, she and her family, without exception also got the impact. They had to move on to safer place, since the house which she lived in was one hour long from the Japanese headquarter.  Rosa joined to guerrilla called the hukbahalap, its aim was to fight over Japanese. Even though, Japanese aimed for occupying was for good, but later it was proved to be a big put on.
Maria’s first affliction was being raped by Japanese troops, when she was about to go with the guerrilla to send the dry branch to the headquarters. They were caught off, Maria was amongst men, seeing Maria as the only lady, Japanese troopers then abducted her. After being abducted, she was then being raped by a trooper. She did cried out loud. She remembered her mother’s face who ever got rape as well. She’s only fourteen back then, not even reached her puberty yet. She later learned the one who raped her named Captain Tanaka. That was happened twice. She felt her life was miserable, she almost lost hope, but luckily she had her mother who could exactly understand how she felt at that time.
It wasnt end, Maria’s suffering didnt stop like that. When she was about to send the ammunition and guns to headquarters with carabao cart. At first, maria didnt know that place where she sat down was actually guns and ammunition. It became a worried to her, since if they were caught by Japanese troops bringing ammunition and guns there would immediately killed.  But at the end, when Japanese troop investigated the inside of cart they didnt find out any, it meant they were safe, At that time. Only 50 meters away from the gun checkpoint, one of the trooper called the guerrilla to go back. But it was actually only Mario who was being called. So Maria went to meet the trooper. And after that, she was being abducted AGAIN. That was where the story of Maria’s darkest moment actually began.
She became a comfort woman or sex slaver for Japanese troops. Each night she had to serve about hundreds of Japanese troops. She felt in pain, she was physically and mentally tortured. Her pride being turned down. But she finally met a man who raped her for the first time, Captain Tanaka. He seemed to be fond of Maria, he thread her well unlike others. Even though Maria didnt take a liking to him at first, but at the end she learned to love him. He also helped Maria when she got malaria attack and at the end set her free from the brothel. But that was the last time Maria got to see Tanaka, when he tried to give her a cup of tea because she was sicked and later got caught –Maria was being punished because she leaked the plan of Japanese troops to boom her station, she felt she had to safe her mother and other, and at the end suspected by Japanese because if her deed.
She found herself lying at the street, she remembered nothing but Tanaka’s face when he tried to give her a cup of tea. Her aunt recognized her and took her home to tell the chronology. Since that time, Maria was having a disorder, she was in great trauma for what had happened to her. Her head went bald and when she was spoke her word slurred. People thought she was crazy and she became a butt of jokes because of that. Not only she had to suffer such great trauma, but also afraid to meet people esp.men.
But later, Maria got married to Domingo, a loyal suitor who loved her sincerely. She got 3 children, 2 girls, 1 boy. And until the end of her life at 1997 she was struggling with other former comfort woman for justice towards Japanese government.
God, the story of the comfort woman totally opened my eyes. I was always beefed about why life is so hard, unfair and cruel to me, but i cant imagine how can i face the world if i were in the same position as they. I learned to be grateful, I'm millions luckier that they. And for Maria Rosa who has meet the God and probably got an eternally happily ever after life at heaven, thank you for telling your pain story, you sure have gotten the justice at the proper place.

Minggu, 11 Maret 2012

10 March '12

I had an insomnia today. So i spent an hours buffering some old videos. The videos of him. Do i have to explain who’s him i talked about? Haha. The love of my life, my lee –call me insane, i dun curr. I watched the videos of him as an MC of midnight reality show, God,  i miss him more than before now. In the episode that i watched,  there was him interacting with girls, where the 3 luckiest girl got feeding by him, and i was amazed at his gentle attitude and sort of lame sense of humor. It was long until 6.30 p.m. Since SHINee was also released the other member teaser today, i procrastinated to sleep, i have a strong feeling, that today was onew’s turned - it turned out right at the end though, haha. But i couldn't manage to wait until the teaser out and fell asleep.
i fell asleed in front of my notebook, and once i woke up, i didn't know why but i was involuntary opened up my notebook, set the internet on, loged in to twitter,  checked the timeline, and there was one saying that onew looked inhumanly gorgeous, blah blah and any good compliments about him. So, i checked up the website i usually looked for the latest update about SHINee and i saw the latest update title was about onew and teaser –onew’s teaser in one line though,haha. I clicked on it, and bam! I couldn't believe what i saw in front of me right here right now. ‘Is he really human? God, he’s so pure, innocent like a kid, sexy as hell, good looking beyond words.’ I was actually lost my words. I was too overwhelmed to be able to see his face AGAIN, after long waiting the day THIS day was finally happened, to see his smile and face. I swear today is one of the most spiritually unforgettable. I love him for any reasons, i just do.

9 March '12

Nothing absolutely special happened today. Waking up at 8 a.m, taking a bath and accompanying my mom to the market. There is a little trivial, i’m currently obsessed with ‘Onde-onde yenny’,haha. The reason is because its taste, i love it to death that i just want to eat that food whole day. Like seriously, the taste is delicious beyond tons of fried chicken, haha.
My bro was back home today as well, he looks way more well-taken-care-of. We had a dinner at solo stick, not exactly a dinner though, because i just drank a lemon tea, not in the mood to eat at that time. On our way back home from ‘dinner’, we bought a ‘rousted bread’.
Ah, i almost forget one thing. Today’s the maknae of SHINee turned to release the teaser of SHINee’s upcoming album. I have nothing diff to say, my comment about the teaser more or less the same as the previous one. I still don’t get from what point of view it was theatrical or dreamy. Blame my eyes that lack of the sense of art so does my heart, lmao. 
Crapping to midnight, i was watching ‘Indonesian idol’ that brought indefinite laughter, so much commotion and crazy things. What a good way to end up the day. 

Kamis, 08 Maret 2012

8th March ‘12


I began my day by waking up earlier than usual. It went on flat later on though. Nothing much i can say about my daily activities actually, because it’s seriously boring like that. But for today something kind of special to me.
First, i began my productive hours around 8 a.m. I did quality time with my immortal friend –my notebook. I was twittering and a little surprise happened to me this morning, guess what? My Boys is freakin comeback!. Yeah, this beloved boys i talked about is a korean boygroup –SHINee. After a long and tiring waiting process they finally comeback with their mini album entitled ‘Sherlock’, the album set to be released on 21st march (The soon i heard about the album tittle it was remained me of Sherlock Holmes, kind of similar, huh?) plus jonghyun who did tease the fans by tweeting ‘Omona, SHINee is back’ ( gosh this boy is seriously a tease or a troll?). The surprise didnt stop, i got an even more shocking surprise –sadly not the appareance of my lee, SM released an official teaser of Choir minho, and God! My mouth was seriously wide agape, fortunenately i didnt slobber. I felt like slapping on my face in the morning, seeing that half naked-skinny-with-nipple boy laid down on the sofa, Does SM  want to make him a porn star wanna be or what? Gosh, they could do better than the cheap-and-porn-like teaser like that. It was worsen with minho’s appear to be blonde hair. Oh my, not even for once i ever imagined minho in blonde, it’s simply a big NO NO. By that officially official shocking news about their comeback, i’m starting to worried about the others look-like after this. This one is already give me a long-term shocking effect, just cant imagine if jinki finally popep up from his hiding with bald head. I’m preparing my self for the worst. But i hope the songs can exceed my expectation, because i know SHINee have been managed to bring a great musical quality, as far as i become a fan of them. Well, we’ll see.
What else can i say about today? After that i was continuing my day with studying, downloading, sleeping, taking bath, eating, and reading, yeah it just flowed up like that almost everyday. SHINee brighten my day. My trending topic in my mind today –cheesy much, right? I dun curr.

The Unknown Kony...

I have just done watching ‘KONY 2012’,  and i really am shocked for knowing such unhuman behaviour is still exist and it’s actually happening right now. This Joseph Kony guy is the main actor. Who is he? It’s probably the basic question since he has been unknown all this time. But for now he is become a little-known. Josep Kony kidnaps and adops childrens precisely in Uganda, Afrika. He collects them to burst his power, for boys they will become soldiers that aims to kill their own parents and for girls they will become a sex slave tools. Eventhough i’m still kind of sublime with the major goal of Josep Kony for gathering so much childrens –i knew it’s to increase his own power, but for what occasion he does that? Destroying the world? Or what?. But put aside my allegation, im in with this project. To stop Joseph Kony’s deeds. Our world craving for justice. I might continually write about this topic to keep myself uptodate about the issue.

Minggu, 04 Maret 2012


Happiness Is All Self-Talk

At first i felt so wrong and guilty the moment i took a decision to quit from my last university label. But then, i know i have chosen the right decision, i learned my lesson tho. I keep on searching and searching, i keep running into problems, even today i still somehow feel insecure about my  future, what i want to be, do my choice will bring me luck?. I learn a lot about passion on my way to my next destination. Actually, i always know where my passion lies, it’s just there’s this feeling that keeps me from take this matter seriously. Later than i know what’s my real passion, where’s my soul belongs to.  From now on, i want to do what i love, call me a selfish being or whatever, but hey life is only once, why do we have to mess up with our life just for something that pointless? I mean something that you don't like, something that isn't ‘Your thing’, we have to be selfish once in a while when it comes to self-satisfaction, in my very own opinion. Remember how childish i am back then, i feel bad about it, like seriously. I overlooked the most important thing in life, what’s that thing? I want to keep it  for my own sake. But I'm glad, i figured out the light in the darkness trough this long and tiring self-talk. I do really want to say ‘THANK YOU GOD’, and i mean it. I’ll prove to the nature, that being selfish isn't all or always bad, of course in tangible ways.

Kamis, 23 Februari 2012

A Post For Anonymous Beloved


I never loved someone this much before. Kinda lame to say that this guy who has successfully taken my heart away isnt someone i know in real life. He comes out to be an idol. As lame as it sounds, but at least i can unequivocally say that what i feel about him isnt a lame joke. He means a lot to me.  His smile can sweep my worries away and lighter my burden. I'm starting to know that you don't need an exact reason to love someone wholeheartedly, the truth is you somehow find it hard to discover the reason why you love someone. Yeah, that is precisely what i feel about him. His tender sweet smile, his dreamy angelic voice, his silly adorable attitude, and any of his imperfections that makes me falling even more deep into him. You don't need someone totally perfect to flutter your heart, nor that six pack body to make your mouth wide agape. That sincere feeling we call ‘love’ isn't always about superficial, but what’s inside that makes us incomplete when we cant manage to see him even just for a seconds. I found my real passion and even sacrifice so much time on him, but i regret nothing. Loving him is like a guilty pleasure, for once in my life i feel how amazing it is to be able to love someone sincerely. You want nothing in return, just a simple smile can paid off everything already. Yeah You My J. Please stay the same!.